LRT

I am a regular LRT user since 2 years ago. But what I experienced yesterday was something different. Everyday, I board the train at Damai station, about 15 minutes away from Pasar Seni where my office is located. and the next station after Damai is Ampang Park.

So yesterday, I boarded the train as usual, train was so-so, not too pack and not too empty. There was this one pakcik, I guessed he was around 60+ yo, standing in the middle of the coach, leaning against the train handrail with a quite big backpack. Just after the train departed from Damai, tibe2 pakcik ni macam lemah lutut. Almost fell on us, yes including me because I was standing just a few steps from him. Tapi we pushed him back, I assumed he fell  asleep while standing, so macam mamai2 terjatuh, then he stood back. Then, it happened again, twice within one minute until he totally collapsed on the floor just a few seconds after I realized he was really sick, not mamai.

It happened so fast that I only managed to move a bit to give him space and see him collapsed with his eyes wide opened. I was trying to help tapi macam tak sempat and he was quite big I dont think I can help him alone. Semua orang macam terkejut and aaaa aaa, omg, shock sound was in play. Luckily we reached Ampang Park station just in time, as soon as the train stopped, I ran out, shouted at the Rapid people for help. But only one Rapid guy was there,so memang tak larat la die nak angkat pakcik tu. I quickly moved around to get help from more people but too bad Ampang Park memang tak ramai orang sangat.

I walked back to the door where I stepped out, where the pakcik was collapsed, but it was so shocking to see the door closed, and the pakcik was still there, inside the train, laying on the floor. I was so panic that I didnt even board the train. Abang Rapid immediately called the next station, KLCC using walkie talkie  to inform the situation and asked them to be prepared to help the pakcik. So, I waited for another train...didn't know what happen to the pakcik, and feeling upset.

Deep inside, I was so pissed off of 2 things. But before that, thank you abg Rapid for your quick action, I really hope the KLCC team managed to help the pakcik. and I salute you for being so responsible.

Maybe because it was the RAPID guy responsibility, other train users boleh buat bodoh je tengok that pakcik collapsed and tengok abg Rapid sorang2 tak mampu angkat. Why dont you lend a hand? I dont expect them to send the pakcik to hospital, or buy him drinks, I know the Rapid people is responsible for that, tapi kenapaaa tak tolong angkatt pakcik tu sekejap before the door closed? Seriously u have to wait until the RAPID guy came? And I am so sure that there were a lot of guys yang muda2 in that coach, sebab pagi2 semua orang pergi keje kottt, and LRT doesnt even have a pink coach, ok? I still can't brain  why they didn't help. why oh why...

And another thing.. kalau dah tau pakcik tu tua even he didnt collapse pon please la bagi seat, tak malu ke yang muda2 ni nak duduk dekat priority "red seat" kalau nampak pakcik tua tu berdiri. Same goes to pregnant woman, kadang2 it's so obvious that the lady is pregnant, tapi boleh buat2 tak nampak??

Common sense might not be "common" for some people.  I am so sick of these selfish people in Malaysia. Not to generalize, but hello, jadi gentle sikit boleh?  Imagine if you pregnant one day, and remember everyone grows older anywayyy. Pakai baju se cantik2 se hensem2 yang mampu, muka nak nampak lawa nak tough tapi duduk kat seat and let the oldies and the pregnant ladies standing? .....excuse me, where are you come from again??

2013

"Every man should be born again on the first day of January. Start with a fresh page."

 -Henry Ward Beecher

Happy New Year people! hihi  nak wish pon dh 16days delay. Zaman2 sekarang dah tak mampu dah nak buat resolution every year. Because most of them will end up, bringforward to next year! haha.  last year's resolution pon brape percent je yang accomplished.

I am now trying to adapt with my new life. Not that I'm moving anywhere, but.. Ok I forgot to mention that my youngest sister got 5A's in her UPSR last year. So yay! But no yay. We decided to send her to hostel just like 3 of us. After UPSR semua duduk asrama. With ayah being far far away, and another sister at KMM, and the married couple is quite occupied with their activities, left me and mama alone T_T

You see the flow? Anak bongsu di hantar ke asrama, it was not just adik yang selalu homesick, mama pon get the sick-sick syndrome all the times. Husband-sick and anakbongsu-sick. Well just imagine, all this while memang my youngest sister yang ade with mama all the times, pergi sekolah anta, balik ambik, tidur sekatil, kekekee.  And now, I took over everthing! haha from the bed, bathroom, all the gadgets, remote control, couch and etc. and as usual trying to be silly badut to entertain mama after work. hehe. But after 6pm, baru la ade orang dekat rumah. I can't imagine how bored mama is, staying at home alone without Awin.

So yea, that is basically how my year started. Adapting adapting adapting. This month is my anniversary with BV. It has been a year. One freaking yearrrr. It doesn't sound long at all. But what I've gone through, fuh *lap lap peluh* I feel like athousandyearssssss. haha Ok tipu je. Dah lama tak rase exaggerate over2 :P

I miss celebrating new year at Disneyworld. I just need something more than watching the fireworks from inside the house, and the laziness to open the grill made it worse. Feel like being in the prison and watching the fireworks alone from the cell. I need my favorite people. I need to get out from the normal routine. Miss. Miss.

Anyhowww, Hello fresh page. Hoping that I can get a super nice drawing at the end of the year. hehehehe.

2012 Recap

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves. "- Bill Vaughan

January - Started working at Bureau Veritas (M)

February - Penang!

March - Passed BOSET and obtained OSP 

April -  Morib with Favorite People and First Offshore trip to Balik Papan

May- Bandung Trip with favorite friends!

June- Melaka!Sending off younger sister to KMM

July - Sending off Ayah to Pakistan and breakfasting @KLIA

August - Rayaaa! Without ayah and the married couple. Oh so incomplete.

September - Double surprise from bestiesss! <3 and Company Annual Dinner

October - Broga Hill Finally

November- Terry Fox Run and Family Trip to Genting 

December -  AFF Suzuki Semi final Malaysia Vs Thailand. Too bad we lost. Family day @ Port Dickson

Thank you 2012 for a great year and let's get excited for a better year ahead.

May next year brings more accomplishment, strengthen our relationship with family, friends and the most important one, Allah. 

Staying up midnight or not, I still wanna see the new year in.

Be a better muslim is all I need. 

Happy New Year people!

Braces

I've been wearing braces for a year now. and I have at least another one year to go. Huarghhh! Dari dulu memang nak pakai braces tapi masuk asrama la pegi UTP la pegi US la delay delay and delay Alhamdulillah after back for good baru got the chance.

If people ask me..Sakit tak pakai braces? i would firmly answer, SAKIT! kahkahkah. Sakit yang mula2 rasa, time pakai molar band. To create spaces between teeth. Tapi just a first few days la, then bila dah stagnant tak sakit sangat or maybe i dah imune.idk.

4 teeth extraction was nothing seriously! haha kalau sape nak pakai braces tapi takut cabut gigi, you are totally wrong. Cabut gigi tak rasa ape2, the dentist will numb your tooth with injection of anesthetize. Cuma rase kebas and tiba2 dah ilang je gigi haha. Lepas cabut gigi, I still can talk endlessly tapi mungkin bahasa kurang difahami sebab ade kapas. And mama sampai suruh diam because the more i talk the more blood coming out but I just didn't feel any pain.

During the bracket installation pon tak rase sakit, cuma penat nganga mulut lama je. But mine was better because the dentist put the upper bracket first, a month later baru install the bottom one. So from the first check up to the bracket installation ada la about 2months. And the rest of the months, until now. Only orang bergigi besi knows how does it feel kekekeke.

Basically, after dah pakai braces you'll have monthly appointment with dentist. Depends on what procedure you're on, sometimes 2 bulan skali. Everytime checkup the dentist will tighten the bracket. and it'll become so tense. Boleh rasa la gigi tu bergerak, macam kadang rase nak marah, bile gigi berlaga sikit je pon emo gila, smpi rase nak cabut mulut letak tepi, and blablabla. So a few days after checkup, bersedia la untuk emotional war. kahkah. Makan pon memang main telan je la. Tapi tapi tapi if people ask, pakai braces boleh kurus ke? haaaaa the answer is BOLEH, but not for me! kahkahkah. Sebab sakit2 gigi pon I still eat anything yg I can eat, a few days je sakit, from then tunggu je la a few weeks until next appointment, makan dengan normalnya.

Tapiiii, after a year which is now, the dentist started to put the unitek elastic on the bracket. Macam getah bungkus makanan tu tapi 1/3 of the diameter, so kecik and ikat dekat gigi. OMG this one memang sakit tak tipuuuuu. The pain was not only for a few days like usual, tapi getah tu kene tukar everyday!! so memang takkan stagnant la sebab getah tak sempat kembang, dh kene tukar :( Bile bangun tidur je macam huarghh sakitnya.

- Dulu boleh makan apple sebijik sesuka hati, skrg either cut it small or mintak mama gigitkan kahkah. Outside my house, memang tak makan apple la :P
- Sayur pon dh kurang makan unless at home,sebab sayur2 senang stuck everywhere sooooo you know how bad  you look like when you have greeny2 thing stuck at your bracket? you just don't wanna get into trouble. Makan dekat rumah selamat!
- Bracket saya pernah tercabut and terus missing in action sebab makan kopok lekor kahkahkah. Most probably dah selamat masuk perut, and you have no idea how embarrassing I was when I told my dentist about it.
- Getah pernah putus dalam mulut sebab makan sotong. Yup putus dalam mulut yang mengejutkan sebab kena pipi dan sakit. tapi lebih over terkejut dan ketawa dari terasa sakitnya.
- Everyone knows how much I love sleeping, like I can sleep everywhere anytime, even for only 2 minutes, but this braces thing haihhhhh. sakit sampai tak boleh tido. Fadhe tak boleh tidur? so weird so weird. but yeaaa it's killing me nowww. Rase macam gigi tengah gerak, and telan air liur pon sakit and rase sengal2 kalau lidah terkena gigi pon macam aduiiiii. and that's the only reason of this midnight post.

Oh please dont keep me staying all night T_T

Tapi bila orang tanya Worth it keee with all these pain? For me, it's worth the pain kekeke. Sebab gigi saya memang categorized as OKU in dentistry.

Before, After and tempat mengadu kesakitan a.k.a teman berbesi. kahkahkah

Grill

"Sesuatu yang terjadi tentu ada hikmah daripadaNya"

In life, I've always asked myself, why this thing happens to me? Why it has to happen now? and the list of the whys goes on...especially on the bad things. It was a human nature to ask/blame/regret first before reflect yourself and look at it from the positive side.. No matter how optimistic you are, if something bad happened, the first thing in mind would be the why, then you will slowly realize that there must be a reason why it happens. But sometimes things just don't making any sense for...ever.

When I'm feeling down, I always replay this story again and again. It happened about 10 years ago. But the lesson learned is a lifetime guarantee. It is still fresh in mind.

During  that time, we lived in a corner lot terrace house. Just the normal terrace house, with a garage which fit only for one car. One day, my dad wanted to reverse our car out from the garage, but he mistakenly put the gear on D, pressed the gas pedal and banggg! it hit the sliding door grill. Car was okay but the grill was badly damaged. Luckily, the gap between the sliding door and the grill was quite big so it didn't broke the glass. It happened jussttt a few days before Eid. We didn't blame ayah. But you know as a human, deep inside we just can't run from the whys.

(source: Google)

The metal grill was bend, but the lock was still functioning. It was just that, it needed some technical skills to open the grill, which only we knew! haha. we had to lift it up a bit, turn the key, push the grill hard  then slide. Only mama had the capability! :P I knew the secret but at my age, it was a very complicated task, so let's save that disable grill for mama. Because it was nearly raya, so we planned to repair it after came back from kampung.

On the 2nd day of raya, while we're at kampung, ayah got a phone call from one of our neighbours. They suspected that our house was robbed a night before. Because they saw our pagar dawai hijau was cut. You know corner lot house, selalu keliling ade dawai hijau tuu. We rushed home. While in the car, we prayed hard, hoping that nothing happened to our house. Dah la raya guna duit banyak, grill pulak cacat, kereta calar2, and now a robbery? When we arrived, we checked the house in and out, in and out, but found nothing was missing. and there's no hint that the robbery was succeeded. Then we found a few marks on the front grill, police suspected that the robbers were trying to open the grill with their metal tools but failed. Maybe normally their skills worked, but this time, sorry, only we know how! hehehe

(source: Google)

After sometime, one of the policeman saw another dawai hijau at the back was cut, between our house and the neighbour house. Apparently, the robbers changed their mind because they couldn't get through our magic grill, or maybe because our grill costed them more time and effort, so they moved to our neighbour house. They lost a lot of valuable things including the gold necklace, money, electronic appliances etc. Poor them :(

It was not that I am happy with it, but we would never know if the robbers managed to get into our house as well, they could kill two birds with one stone. That incident hit me hard to accept that Allah jadikan sesuatu mesti ada hikmahnya. If only Ayah didn't hit the grill, we might had lost more than the cost of repairing the grill itself. At some point in life, things will be making more sense.

And after all, Allah is always the best planner.

Terry Fox Run 2012

"No effort is too small to be recognized. One small step is a beginning of all hopes" 

- Poh Lin Lim (Terry Fox Run Malaysia, 2012)

We made it to the Run!!! Yeayyy! I've always wanted to join this type of events. Finally got the chance. We signed up to be a volunteer for Standard Chartered Marathon a few months back, but guess what? Turned out the number of applicants are 10 times more that what they needed. With no experience and all, of course we got rejected.

But this time, we were part of the runnerssss! hehehe. For people like me, It was good to start with charity run like this. No pressure, no competition, you're free to walk or jog or run at your own pace at your own speed. And at least selambat2 mana pon takde la jadi the last person to the finishing line kan kekeke.

I know nothing about Terry Fox until my best friend invited me to join this event. I was so glad. Many thanks to her ;) Then I started google about him, and the more I read the more excited I became to be part of the Terry Fox Runners. I am more interested in sharing about the running day itself than the history of Terry Fox. Please google to know more about this Marathon of Hope.

It was a great experience for me. The runners inspired me a lot. Some of them were cancer survivors and cancer fighters, some of them running for their father, mother, relatives and some of them just got inspired by Terry Fox. I am so touched to see a lot of families participated, they tagged along their kids and ran together,  they carried their child piggyback all the way, some of them even brought infant and walked with stroller with them.

 If other people can do it happily, why not me? I don't even have a child. and as far as I know, I have no physical limitation or any health problem. Bawak badan sendiri dengan lemak2 degil jeeee hihihi. Sambil berjalan sambil berlari sambil bersyukur banyak kali, Alhamdulillah for a good health, Alhamdulillah for the opportunity and the leisure time I had, to contribute the least I can. I was so happy to be part of Terry Fox Run. It felt so good to be surrounded with the fighters and the inspired people like them. A good start and I would definitely join again next year.

Ya Allah, Kau kurniakanlah aku kesihatan yang baik dan kelapangan masa for more charity events like this. Amin.

Rain

KL is raining almost everyday. I'm really bad at Geography, but as far as I know the Northeast monsoon brings heavy rainfall only to the east side. And KL is err more to Eastern side I supposed? Tapi bukankah hujan itu rahmat Allah? Alhamdulillah.

Believe it or not, I finally hit the track back, after God knows for how long, since graduated kott? Fuh. Running shoes pon dah expired. I tried to be consistent, but who are we to change the weather? On the third week, I planned to go to the park on Saturday, woke up early in the morning, just like the normal working days, basuh muka gosok gigi, (I don't usually take bath before jogging hihi), getting ready... and..It was suddenly raining.heavily. it seemed that the rain was not gonna stop for a while. lebat sangat.I was so frustrated. As if the rain is the reason I couldn't be consistent, the rain spoiled my perfect plan, the rain ruined my mood and blablabla. Bad mood. Waiting for the rain to stop, getting all stress out when the rain was getting heavier, countdown,countdown and countdown.. in the end what I got was just a wasted Saturday morning. *sigh*

On the next morning, it was also raining. But this time, i was not gonna wait like an idiot anymore. I don't have the power to stop the rain, but I have 100% control of myself. I can change the way I think, I have full control over my emotion, I have the chance to upgrade my plan to a better one. On a simpler note, there are a thousand things I could do other than stopping the rain.

So I sat at the balcony, I can still see KLCC from far, but not as clear as usual.. I read a book while having a cup of warm tea. Felt so good. and relax. about half an hour passed, hujan tak stop lagi, tibe2, rase nak mandi hujan. Yes, sangat tibe-tibe yang mengejutkan. Every drop of the rain that fall urged me to come closer. So tempting. Not like usual, without any thinking, not even changing my cloth, I just walked out to the end side of balcony, extending my neck as giraffe as I can, looking at the rain that fall, trying to catch as much drops as I could and..... I got really wet in no time. Ahhh...It was sooo refreshing. felt like ages since I last dancing in the rain. Time kecik2 dulu suka la, sekarang ujan sikit menggelupur carik payung, puteri air sangat haih. End up, my younger sister and two cousins joined me as well. We were singing, shouting, like nobody's business. I hope we didn't bother the neighbour since the rainfall melody sounded more comforting than anything else.

The next few days, in the evening, my car broke down when it was nearly maghrib. Me and mama had no option. we had to walk home about 20mins. maghrib and hujan, so obviously taxi was impossible.  Instead of being stressed, we were happy to walk. Luckily, we had an umbrella in the car. But after a few mins of walking, Mama said "tak payah la payung angah, tutup je. alang2 dah basah jom kite mandi ujan. mama pon dah lama tak main hujan." I closed the payung. and we walked home with joy. you know that feeling? You have no idea how much I enjoyed that moment ;) hehe.

Now, rain can never bring me down again. God gives me rain, I could throw the umbrella and dance happily. you should try this :P

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass but learning to dance in the rain" literally...

This is not rain.  but I just miss those moments :( 

 Sometimes we tend to focus more on the uncontrollable, without realizing we take for granted things we have full power on.

Engineer vs Teacher?

"No matter how high a bird can fly, it still has to look for food on the ground"

My cousin is a teacher, in fact I have a few aunties who are also teachers, primary school secondary school, semua ade. One day, all of a sudden  my cousin asked me this cepumas question when I was eating,

"Angah susah ke kerja jadi engineer?" 

To be honest, I don't know how to answer this, unless if she asked about my work specifically, then it should be easier to answer, but to generalize the engineer's job? I don't know. I was about to answer "STRESS", yes loud and bold, but then I realized semua kerja pon stress kan? So I quickly change my mind,

"Uhmm, depends la kot. ade yg senang ade yg sush, depends on field and company. Nape akak tanya tibe2?"

Then she told me about this one young engineer, who posts about Engineer vs Teachers in her blog, successfully increased her blog traffic, got a lot of comments and got so many hits in one day. tibe2 terus jadi famous blog die. Why? Sebab die telah mengkritik cikgu sewenang-wenangnya.I'm not gonna put her link here but if you search Cikgu Vs Engineer InsyaAllah akan jumpe even she already deleted all her entries. Because Google did a good job by caching her old entries, so a few bloggers managed to post her hot entry on their blog. 

Freedom of speech. So she has the right to write anything.. blog dia suka hati die la kan? But as an engineer, I feel so embarrassing reading her entry. I don't know what is the right term to use, mungkin 'lupa daratan' atau 'kacang lupakan kulit' atau 'si tanggang'? you told me. 

But one thing we need to remember... Tiap kali berdoa..

" Ya Allah, ampunkan dosa2ku, dosa kedua ibu bapaku, dosa GURU-GURUku, ahli keluargaku.............." 

Tak penah dengar lagi orang berdoa

"Ya Allah, ampunkan dosaku, dosa kedua ibu bapaku, dosa ENGINEER-ENGINEER......".. or maybe not yet. 

That shows how much our teachers mean to us...Mulianya kerja seorang guru, to be honest, I feel jealous, because I didn't get as much prayers as Teachers do. maybe we should include engineer in our doa then? T_T

Surprise!

"A faithful friend is the medicine of life - Apocrypha"

Last weekend was not more than just a dream for me. Sweet, short and unbelievable. But too bad, It was over when I started to realize it was all real. Got a phone call from roomate on Friday morning saying she was on the bus and will arrive at Pudu in 20 minutes. Sambil mamai2 baru bangun tdo, I asked her more than 10 times, "ko tipu keee", "kalau tipu taknak kawan sampai bilaaa22", because I was so shocked, I was not expecting her to come all the way from Penang just to be here. Clueless. Menggelabah. Mandi cepat2 and fetch her at Pudu.

The next day, I expected another friend to come, she said she will come no matter what. So, I drove to LRT station to pick her up. But guess what? they got me twice!! Surprise after surprise, she was not alone. She brought another favorite friend with her, who came all the way from Kelantan. fuh fuh.  smile from ear to ear. nonstop talking and laughing. dari pagi sampai ke malam. double the food, double the happiness. I was so happpppyyy! :D :D

I just don't know how to put this into words. But they make me happy more than anyone else could. It's true, "happiness comes when you least expect it" :)

Thanks for lying me the wholeee weeekk. Thanks for the never ending dramaa. And Thanks for the well-planned surprise! hehehe. My life would not be as great without you guys :')

And that was the best surprise I have ever had...

and a good recharge session indeed :) 

Birthday!

Alhamdulillah for another year.

Alhamdulillah for a thoughtful family

Alhamdulillah for the most sporting colleagues 

Alhamdulillah for the forever awesome favorite people

Alhamdulillah for all the wishes. the celebrations. the gifts. and the du'a 

Twenty-X, healthy, fat, full-time employed, love sleeping, ugly betty and happy! 

I won't ask for more :)

Iftar

"Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang bersedekah baik laki-laki mahupun perempuan dan meminjamkan kepada Allah pinjaman yang baik, nescaya akan dilipat-gandakan (ganjarannya) kepada mereka; dan bagi mereka pahala yang banyak." 

(Qs Al Hadid:18)

Selama ni tengok dalam TV  je majlis berbuka puase dengan anak2 yatim, orang2 tua  dalam bulan Ramadhan. Tak pernah terfikir pon berkesempatan nak sama-sama meraikan mereka. Atau mungkin tak pernah cari kesempatan tu? Tapi this year kesempatan tu datang sendiri.. Alhamdulillah.. Terima kasih kepada organizer berusaha anjurkan Majlis cmni. 

 So yesterday, we (ex-Vandy) had Majlis Berbuka Puasa bersama Anak2 Yatim dri Baitul Ehsan, Taman Maluri. Bermesra dengan anak2 yatim sambil menderma dan yang paling penting merasai kehidupan mereka yang mungkin sesetengah dri kita tak pernah terfikir, jauh lagi merasa termasuk saya. Kalau selama ni berbuka puase dengan kawan2 nak pikir makan sedap, nak pikir borak2 update2 cerita je, jadi sesekali ade majlis mcm ni memang peluang yang sangat saya hargai. Mungkin kita dah banyak kali jadi tangan yang menerima, dengan rezeki yg Allah bagi, dah tiba masanya kite pulak jadi tangan yang memberi.

Adik2 ni umur saya rase between 7-17 years old. Tapi yang ramai around 8/9 years old. Lepas buka puase minum air and kuih2, diorg terus kemas2 siap nak solat Maghrib, tanpa disuruh tanpa di arah. Pantas semua penuhkan saf depan skali. Kita yang dh besar2 ni pulak baru nak amek wuduk, baru nak bersiap2. Ade 2 3 kali saya terdengar kawan2 ckp, eh lajunya diorg dah siap2. Segan pulak kite kakak2 kan adik2 pulak jadi contoh. But no one said the older is always right. hehehe.

After terawih, we had one sharing session with the owner/founder's wife, let just call her Ummi. Sape2 yang dengar Ummi bercerita mesti tersentuh hati. MasyaAllah mulianya hati Ummi. Di sebalik dunia yang makin kejam ni, masih ada orang sebaik ini. May Allah bless and protect her and her family. So saya try untuk share kepada sape2 yang x berkesempatan nak join, as someone who was there yesterday.

Mula2 Ummi bercerita macam mane die ambil adik2 ni. Sebak je dengar. Selalunya Ummi kata, die akan pergi ambil sendiri adik2 tu kalau ade orang mengadu pasal masalah2 diorg. Ade yang kene halau dgn mak ayah, ade yang ayah meninggal mak pekak and bisu, ada yang ayah bru meninggal jadi tinggal dengan ibu tunggal 6 beradik... macam2 kisah ade.Ade yang Ummi jaga since 5months old, Ummi susukan, jaga dri kecik sampai dh besar.

Yang paling saya ingt, ade seorang adik ni rupenye warga Myanmar. Adik A ni sangat mesra time makan duduk dengan kitorang sekali. Tak sangka die penah ade kisah buruk dalam hidupnya. Ummi ambil die from Myanmar lepas ade orang report, die dibesarkan oleh Nenek umur dalam 85 tahun, ayah mak dah meninggal, duduk pulak di perkampungan ajaran sesat. Ummi kata, Alif Ba Ta semua tak kenal. 4 hari 4 malam perjalanan Ummi ambil die dri sana.

They need at least 10k per month, untuk belanja semua adik2 ni tak termasuk makan lgi..without any dana yang tetap. Seorang sahabat tanya, macam mana Ummi dapatkan duit banyak2 tu? Ummi kata, " Ummi pon xtau, tapi Alhamdulillah setiap bulan Allah cukupkan"

Sahabat lain pulak tanya, Apekah bentuk sumbangan yang Ummi paling perlukan untuk rumah Baitul Ehsan? Jawab Ummi "Tak kira apa2 bentuk sumbangan Ummi terima seadanya". (dalam hati saya, alaaa mulianya manusia T_T malu dengan diri sendiri, saya yang xberapa susah ni pon kalau orang tanya confirm demand bermacam2)

Yang paling tersentuh hati, even Ummi sendiri pon kene berusaha setiap bulan nak sara semua adik2 ni, tapi bila ade rezeki lebih, die akan cari rumah2 orang susah sekitar Maluri, hantarkan bantuan seperti makanan. Muliaaa takkkkkkkk? Dah la memang mulia, tambah2 lagi mulianyaaa T_T. Saya dekat rumah ni sampai xtau nak makan ape bukan sebab takde makanan, sebab banyak sangat pilihan. Lagi2 kalau pegi Bazaar.

Semoga Allah bagi kesedaran kepada kita semua supaya sentiasa bersyukur dan mengingati kesusahan orang lain. And I hope I'll get more chances to join such a blessed event like this.

P/s: Kepada sesiapa yang berminat mungkin untuk menyumbang atau pon bertanya soalan directly to Baitul Ehsan, sila email to baitulehsan.maluri@gmail.com.

Ramadhan Kareem!

I hope it's still not too late to wish Happy Fasting & Ramadhan Kareem to all. This Ramadhan is slightly different from last year, and definitely not the same with the previous years. From full time student to full time penganggur to full time employed and dedicated worker!

Ayah will be leaving us for Pakistan for one year. and the most saddest part is he will depart tomorrow, on the 9th day of Ramadhan. That means this is my mom's first raya without Ayah since married, which was like 27 years ago?I was missing for 4 years and finally it was full-house last year but not for long. Since Ayah will be celebrating raya at Pakistan and considering my older sister is now married and has other commitment, it gonna be only 4 of us. How empty raya would be this year? 

I know life would be sooo different starting tomorrow and I just don't wanna think about it for now. I don't know how mama would handle this. But do we even have option? NO. 

Being away from us and leave the place we called home. To the place where bombing is everywhere (God forbid) and "safe" might be a hardest thing to get. For me, It's not safe at all! But does he even have option? NO. That is what Ayah called as Responsibility.

Let go the love of her life for a year, to a strange country. Be an independent housewife and take over the responsibility of taking care of the family. I just admire how strong my mom is in handling this.  But does she even have option? NO. That is what Mama called as Sacrifice.

And me? A hopeless daughter who is not helping at all especially when it comes to emotion. I complaint a lot and got really stressed when I was asked to go to Kertih for a day trip on the 4th day of Ramadhan. It's not a strange place, no bombing, not using different language, and not even for a year! Tapi  merungut nyaaa.. MasyaAllah macam kene pegi Africa setahun berperang, and tinggalkan anak 5 orang yang kene bagi makan  kat rumah. Haihh. and now who am I to complain? When my so called big problem is not even 10% of my parent's? I need to grow up. Like for real.

I hope I could make mama strong because all she needs is support. And May Allah bless and protect Ayah and his journey! Aminn..

expired-fresh-grad.

I am officially one-year-old-fresh-grad! haha nak jugak fresh-grad kan. How does it feel? How do I cope and adapt? Do I like it?

A few weeks before I came back to Malaysia, i have this one thought of  "am I ready for this?" of everything. To adapt with the environment, to leave US, the career path and all. At first, I thought it would be easy. Yelah, i lived in Malaysia much longer than my temporary stay in US kan, so it should be no big deal. But deep inside, it kept bothering me a lot. Eventho I grown up in my hometown, but I spent big part of my teenager years in the US. 4 years that bring me who I am and what I have today.

Back to Family, finally. 
To be honest, the beginning was hard! maybe it is just me. I faced some difficulties.emotionally. Jadi sensitive, tbe2 datang mood yg malas nak ckp dgn sape2 dlm rumah, org melawak sikit nak emo. like nothing is right. haha. Back in US, if I wanna go anywhere, walmart ke jalan2 mne2 ke, i was more to 'informing' my mom, than 'asking permission'. Cuma kalau trip yang jauh2 je tanya. Takde la nak pegi tengok movie, nk shopping pon nk tnye kan. Having supper at iHop at 12am was normal, midnight movie was a routine, walmart at 2am was perfect grocery time! But when I came back, I have this one feeling that the freedom is taken away from me. haha ntah pape rase cmtu. semua bnda nak protest. but as time passed by, i began to realize, it's all different now. lagi2 i live with my family kan, so i have to respect them, and the curfew :P :P and now everything is back to normal. or at least that is what I feel ;) and im doing pretty good at teasing my family members! haha.after all, It's good to be home, again.

Separate from Friends, and Favorite people. 
My family was not there on my graduation day. But yes, they watched me on the stage online.  So I share the happiness with my friends, my batch! And at that moment, I realized, after 4 years, I didn't just hold my degree to be brought home, but I also brought a big family back home! Each of them is a gift from God to me. You have no idea how much we cried at the airport when sending some of us off hehehe.  I don't do pretty well on this. I need to see them as much as I can, because they are the strength that need to be recharged frequently. Alhamdulillah, until now we see each other all the times! Of course, not as frequent as dekat Vandy, dulu mengadap 24/7 kott, hehe but at least I know they still value the friendship as much as I did. Eventho we're now separated by land and sea, scattered all around Malaysia,  but it is such a relief to know I will always  have someone to shout at when I am stressed, someone to talk to when I am depressed, without judging, anytime!

I will continue this later, about the career, about leaving the States and etc.

precious moment, precious friends! 

By the way, HAPPY GRADUATION CLASS OF 2012! Congratulations and Welcome to the Club! ;)

Miri

Rase makin lama makin malas nak menulis. Bukan sebab takde benda nak cerita, tapi tak berperasaan nak menghabiskan mase depan blog. haha. banyak lagi bnda berfaedah seperti menjerit jerit on the phone dengan roomate sampai abes battery, melayan running man sampai mata berair2, mahupun mentidokan diri sampai tak mampu bukak mata :P

So last week I was sent to Miri for a day. Yes, only for one day. Just to get something done which only takes 5 fricking mins. Macam pergi office tapi naik flight, because by 6pm I already touch down at LCCT. But looking from the bright side, I finally get a chance to meet another super-senior, which I haven't meet for 3 years. Thanks boss for letting me meet her for free! :D It was fast, jumpe time lunch hour je but just enough for us to share life stories, update each other and lepaskan rindu keke. oh sempat jugak reminisce Vandy moments, yang paling xleh lupa time freshman, first day snow, naik kereta 7 orang to Marshall, and kene tahan polis. hahaha. that was soo long time ago, but everytime teringat sure tergelak2 even at that time, muka punya cuak pucat2, sampai terus tak boleh ckp english. kahkahkah

next week is gonna be tough. and next 2 weeks, gonna be tougher without teammates at the office! how to survive?

tbe2 sempat blogwalking and terlupa post yang terbengkalai. and i dont have any energy left to keep typing *making excuse*

the unexpected meeting.

" We do not remember days; we remember moments"

-Cesare Pavese

I met one of my closest senior in Vandy last week. She was in SENIOR year when I was FRESHMAN. Last time we see each other was about 3 years ago when I send her off at Nashville airport. Yes, it was a long time ago. A few batches have graduated after that including me, so it's a bit different now. She's married and blessed with a child. and me? KAHKAHKAH

Kebetulan she got work to do at Dayabumi so saya ajak kawan2 gather at KLCC after work to meet her little princess hehehe. All the lawak kosong a few years ago has now became reality. Dlu2 slalu ckp, nnti anak Kak Rehe panggil ktrg kakak tau, bukan auntie. even at that time, we never know when she'll get married and has baby and all. biase la kan cakap2 mcm tu but now it's all REAL hahaha. mase tu Freshman kottt time budak2 hingusannn lgi, sekrang hingus pon time flu je. kekeke. One thing for sure, perangai tu samaa je sakai2 gitu. mungkin sedikit matang skrg. hehehe. how time flies! miss.

and when she introduced us to her daughter, ni Auntie A ni Auntie B and blabla. and we're all like, HELLO? kakak please? ngeh2. auntie really doesn't sound right :P penat Amni kene cubit and buli2 sampai tertdo2 kkekekeke

Introducing my super cute Vandy junior, Amni Tihani!

p/s: Nanti bila jumpe batch sendiri pulak cmni, pengsan.

Affair

My mom is literally a part of me

-Carrie Latet

One.

While doing work at the office, suddenly I crave for mama's tom yam. Call mama at home:

Me: Mamaaa, tibe2 angah teringin nak makan tomyam hari ni. tapi dh tengah hri mesti mama dh masak kan :((

Mama: Hehehe. tu la mama masak dh. memang mama masak tomyam pon. nnti balik makan la.

Two.

On the way to Pasar Malam on Friday evening. Call mama.

Me: Mama angah nk pegi Pasar Malam Jelatek ni kejap. teringin ayam bob. Mama nak kirim pape tak?

Mama: Takde kot. belikan ayam bob je la utk adik. kalau ade nnti mama call balik.

While walking towards LRT to go home. This time mama calls me.

Mama: Angah dekat mana? dah balik pasar ke?

Me: Aah balik dh mama. kenape? mama nak kirim ape2 ke?

Mama: Tadi takde. tpi skrg bru terase nak minum bandung cincau.

Me: Hehehehe. Angah dh beli dh. Tunggu kejap lgi angah sampai.

I don't call it coincidence. I call it mother-daughter affair :)

Wordy Tuesday.

"Never leave your happiness in someone else's pocket, and don't wait on someone else to build your dream life for you. Be the architect and keeper of your own happiness."

-Marc, 12 lies to stop telling yourself-

@Santa Barbara, 2010.

p/s: so engineer also need to be an architect? ehehe

work.

"If you catch yourself working hard and loving every minute of if, don't stop, You're on to something big. Because hard work isn't hard when you concentrate on your passions"

-Marc, 12 stressful things to stop tolerating.

I'm quite busy these past few weeks. Yelah dah 2 bulan bersenang lenang kan. It's time to get busy and be more productive. except for weekend. ngeh3. The not-so-new-job is good. Alhamdulillah. The company treats me well. The colleagues are friendly and so far we get along very well. Time lunch kami gelak macam gila. Time kerja, muka sorang2 macam tampal "please do not disturb" punye sticky notes dekat dahi. hehehe.

Big boss saya Malay, boss kecik pulak Chinese and Indian. Sooo 1 Malaysiaa ok :P I currently working on a few projects under the Chinese boss. At his age, I think he's overachiever sebab dia hebat sgttt. He rarely come to the office, only a few days every month tu pon slalunya nak anta claim yang berlambak2. And even if he does, he will come as early as 6 am and go back by 3.30pm. Very good time management kan so he never get stuck in the heavy traffic. saya tau die banyak buat duit utk company.sbb saya slalu jumpe die dekat office client je.kekeke

And yesterday we had workshop at one of the client's office. I wrote down a few information from client that we required to prepare the report. So, pagi tadi boss pon datang at my place nak tgk semua data2 tu. And I was likeee. errr wait, i need to tidy up a bit. kahkah padahal mmg scribble gilaaa kot buku tu. Then, when I was trying to write it back nicely, I got confused with my own hand-writing. serious tak xtau mana datang no2 pelik. pikir2 siap tnye kwn2. Yes, saya tanya kawan2 ape yang saya tulis. of course la diorg lgi xpaham because they're not even there pon yesterday.kahkah memang sakai. Nak taknak memang kne tnye boss la because he is the only one who was there yesterday.

"Doc, I wrote down these few numbers yesterday, tapi I tak tau itu number ape. I try to recall, still not helping. But I know it's important. "

Maka boss pon amek buku saya, die tengok a few seconds, pastu die gelak. "You tulis itu speed la. 25, 15 and 11 knot. hahaha"

I was amazeddd sambil segan2. he understands my notes more than I do. kahkah.

p/s: HI roomate. GL roomate :P

Embarrassing Moment

Kisah 1

Saya tiap2 hri singgah Mynews nak beli coffee. Every single dayyy ok. So one day ni masuk mynews amek coffee pastu alamak. tin tak sejuk. maybe die baru masukkan dlm fridge kan. so saya pon memangjangkan tangan nak rase tin kat blakang2 tu sejuk ke x. smpi row ke 3 kot bru rase tin sejuk. so nak keluarkan tangan balik kan. sbb nak alih la tin tu satu2 nak amek yg sejuk. tak sedar tangan tu xbrape nak kecik kan, skalii bangg bangg (xtau nak buat sound effect) 3 4 tin jatuhhh tergolek golek ahahaha. ok imagine laa bunyik tin air jatuhh atas lantai, tinggi, banyak pulak tu. malu nyaaa dh la kedai tu sempit, tertonggeng2 kutip tin bwh2 meja cashier semua HAHA. nasib baik die tak sruh bayarr je.

Kisah 2

Last week pegi MMC. Kne anta report. I called the client a few times tpi xjawab2. dh risau2 dh sebab dah sampai dekat2 MMC tu. Pastu sambil jalan tu call2 sambil sms client fokus gilaa tak pandang sekeliling. tak sedar pon sye tengah cross tempat parking yg ade palang2 tu. Tibe2 saya dengar org jerit "Palanggggg" Kuat gila ok. sampai saya terkejut trus pndang blakang, rupenyeee. time saya pusingg blkg tu, "pangggg!!" palang yg kat tmpt kete nak kuar parking tu dh selamat langgar kepala saya. die langgar saya eh bkn sy langgar die haha

Sakit tu tolak tepi ah, nasib palang besi tu dh wrap dengan sponge2 so takde la sakit sgt. tpi malunyaaa Ya Allah. malu gilaa ok. ramai gila org dekat situ, diorg maybe tak dgr palang tu kne kepala, tpi sebab org blakang tu jerit kuat gilaa. yelah kan die nak warning, baik gila kot org tu. tapi saya ni sakaiii. haha reaction lambat. siap blur2 lgi. hahhh ade restoran pulak kat tepi tu and mcm semua oranggg pandangg. siap dengar ade pakcik2 tu ckp "Alhamdulillah takde pape". HAHHAHA sye tahan malu tak pandang kanan kiri jalan laju gilaaaaa. huahuahua

scam alert

"There are no shortcuts to success but hard work, patience and persistence"

-quoted

Tadi balik kerja tbe2 Mama tanya pasal parcel2 and international courier and etc. Pastu mama cerita, ade la kawan die ni tnye2 because her nephew got this one parcel from his friend in UK, which they claimed still stuck dekat Malaysian custom. so kene bayar about RM8000 to release. and guess what?? the parcel contains Laptop, handphone and 100,000 pounds which is A LOT OK?

mule2 dengar je sye dh doubt pasal "friend" tu. and ade ke org yang tak tau how risky it is nak hantar electronic stuff and pegi declare pulak tu? org yg xblaja oversea pon tau kot. and another thing 100,000 pounds? the 2nd ques i asked my mom "mama die jual dadahhh ke kat sana?" haha seriously, kalau student mcm mana die bleh dpt duit byk tu kan. and she is engineering student "kononnya". and pmpn tu kata she will return to malaysia soon.

based on my experiences pos2 barang from US pon, kalau kne hold dekat kastam pon, they can't tell you how much u have to pay, until you go there and open the box in front them. Lepas tu bru die calculate taxes etc. Unless u declare 500usd above confirm akan kne tax straight away. and bila nak pos tu pon, kalau electronic stuff memang tak boleh kalau xsilap la. and 100,000 pounds to declare? kalau saya jdi posmen pon sye tau dlm tu ade 100,000 pounds sye curik dlu. kahkahkah.

and his nephew pon crite dekat my mom's friend ni sebab die nak pnjm duit nak claim bnda2 tu. so terpakse la cerita. and diorg from somewhere dekat utara so this guy memang very determine nak claim jugak parcel tu by this week. and siap nak book flight okk? tpi ktrg dh sruh hold dlu. and ktrg cakap kalau betul2 die nak bg duit ke, sruh bank in je, tak payah nak sakai sgt courier2 duit. haihh

lepas tu saya dgn along pon google2 sebab we have a strong feeling yg semua ni scam. we're so surprised when we found this one website where people share their experiences got scammed by this so-called brilliant scammers. ktorang macam FBI dh berjam2 melayan website ni haha. and sedihnya. ramai gilaaa org Malaysia dh kene tipu. most of them kenal thru internet, and memang surely all these scammers memang ade "org dalam" sebab byk account2 bank yg terlibat is local bank n nama2 melayu ok. byk case yg almost similar with this guy. and the latest post pon feb 13th 2012 so we believe bnda ni memang taktik zaman skrg. from what i read, mostly nigerian akan komplot dengan indon dekat Malaysia suruh ngorat2 smpi mangse terpedaya. diorg siap ade website courier fake lgi.

Ok tapi cerita ni is not 100% related to that guy punye situation sebab ktrg pon xtau sgt either pmpn tu die mmg kenal ke or sama mcm mangse2 lain. Maybe yang tu betul ke kite xtau kan, but i talked to my mom's friend about this and even provide her with this link. Kalau betul alhamdulillah. just to make sure la kan die tak menjadi mangse.

ni i quote from that website.

"....i don't know if i have told you what is inside the parcel of the gift before.Inside, I put the sum of 100,000.00 Pounds in a brown paper bag for the house that i want to buy because i cant be caring money along with my self when i am coming.., Also inside of the parcel, you will find a model HP laptop, a Wristwatch, Model Nokia hand phone communicator ,flowers, My recent pictures, T-shirt and Liverpool jersey and other Jerseys heheh."

Try la baca a few stories here http://www.lawyerment.com.my/boards/article-Other_Laws_of_Malaysia-604.htm

Be safe people. zaman skrg ni org menipu macam2 cara. Ingat tiada jalan mudah untuk jadi senang. so jangan mudah terpedaya ok.